I fucking hate having this blog. It makes me sound really annoying and so dependent on my boyfriend. It’s just easier and faster than writing in my diary.

Yet… I’m going to talk about my boyfriend again.

To be brief: I’m afraid he’ll leave me for someone he goes to school with.  I have zero interest in any other guy I know, but I don’t know how he feels. I know he loves me. I just don’t know if that’s enough to stay with me or to not let his mind wander. I think I just distrust other girls, not him. Like I have first hand experience with flirting with guys who are in relationships, and they’ve flirted back. I don’t want him to do that. But I know there’s nothing I can do. I think my biggest fear is that I’ll end up going to Emerson and he’ll be like right there but then break up with me. And then I’ll be forced to see him out with his new girlfriend while I’m alone.

Yep, that’s it.