sometimes i feel like my boyfriend doesn’t actually love me. one time he told me that he’s always wanted a girlfriend and he loves having a girlfriend. i told him i was the opposite and i never really cared if i had a boyfriend or not, i just wanted the right person. i get scared sometimes that he’s only with me because i’m someone he can call his girlfriend; someone he can be with when he feels like it or someone he can move on from just as long as he gets another girlfriend. i love him. just him. before we started dating i couldn’t care less whether or not i had a boyfriend because i was happy being single. now i’m happy being with him. like my happiness just changed its preference, not like i’m depressed when i’m single and i’m astonishingly happy when i’m in a relationship. well.. okay yeah i’m a lot happier now that i’m with him but it’s not because i have a boyfriend it’s because i have him.