my boyfriend told me he was scared that i was going to go to college really far away. even though i’m applying to colleges in like california and florida… chances are i won’t go. i’m scared he’ll want to leave me because he thinks i’ll leave him when i go to school. that’s really not the case. my dad’s really sick and chances are he’ll pass before high school ends/at least when i’m in college, and i don’t want to be that far away from home when he does. i also don’t want to be that far away from my mom because i know she’ll need me. and i know i’m gonna need my boyfriend when it happens too. he asked me why i would apply to far away schools if i didnt plan on going to them (he doesnt know about my dad) and i just said it was because i just wanted to see if i could get in. but actually, it’s because i like pretending that going that far away was a possibility. i like thinking that i could be that carefree. i’m not.