i’m really nervous for this weekend. i’m really scared that i’ll get there and things will be different and we’ll have nothing to talk about, or rather i’m afraid that i’ll put all the effort into talking and he’ll put in a minimal amount. like today he told me that he has a lot of work due next week… i have a lot of work due next week too, which is why i’m working my ass off to finish it right now so i can actually spend some fucking time with him. i feel like i’m putting in all the effort to see him and talk to him and he could care less. once he was like “oh i wish i could go to your homecoming..” you can. you actually can. if you take the train home for one night then yes, maybe surprisingly to you, you can come and visit me and not the other way around. you arent trapped in boston. if you really want to see me you can.