i’m seeing him next saturday and i don’t know exactly how i feel. i’m SO excited.. it’s almost sad how excited i am. like i’m excited to see him and hug him and hold hands with him and laugh with him and tickle him and snuggle with him and fall asleep next to him. i’m just worried that after all this time he’ll feel differently about me. i’m afraid he’ll see that i’m actually not all that great. i’m afraid he’ll find another girl who’s funnier than me, likes better music than me, is easier than me, who’s prettier than me.
it just hurts a lot. and i’m scared.
