January 2012
1 post
it’s time like these when I remember how much I sincerely hated you.
November 2011
2 posts
I fucking hate having this blog. It makes me sound really annoying and so dependent on my boyfriend. It’s just easier and faster than writing in my diary.
Yet… I’m going to talk about my boyfriend again.
To be brief: I’m afraid he’ll leave me for someone he goes to school with. I have zero interest in any other guy I know, but I don’t know how he feels. I...
i love that he’s there for his friend. it’s just that sometimes i feel like he wouldn’t treat me as well if i were in such a bad situation.
October 2011
6 posts
sometimes i feel like my boyfriend doesn’t actually love me. one time he told me that he’s always wanted a girlfriend and he loves having a girlfriend. i told him i was the opposite and i never really cared if i had a boyfriend or not, i just wanted the right person. i get scared sometimes that he’s only with me because i’m someone he can call his girlfriend; someone he can...
my boyfriend told me he was scared that i was going to go to college really far away. even though i’m applying to colleges in like california and florida… chances are i won’t go. i’m scared he’ll want to leave me because he thinks i’ll leave him when i go to school. that’s really not the case. my dad’s really sick and chances are he’ll pass...
one of my friends always complains about how she has no friends and how she wants to kill herself and how she cuts because no one wants to hang out with her. uhh… excuse me, but i do believe that those “friends” you wanna hang our with so badly are like not that great anyways, and obviously they treat you like shit. you do have friends, idiot, who would actually hang out with...
tomorrow’s the breast cancer awareness day at my school. i hate when people talk about other people’s parents dying of cancer around me. they don’t know my dad has it.. and that he’s not doing well…. but i hate that when they talk of other peoples parents dying they make it gossipy and sound like they pity them. that’s why i don’t tell anyone. i feel...
i’m really nervous for this weekend. i’m really scared that i’ll get there and things will be different and we’ll have nothing to talk about, or rather i’m afraid that i’ll put all the effort into talking and he’ll put in a minimal amount. like today he told me that he has a lot of work due next week… i have a lot of work due next week too, which is...
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September 2011
2 posts
i’m seeing him next saturday and i don’t know exactly how i feel. i’m SO excited.. it’s almost sad how excited i am. like i’m excited to see him and hug him and hold hands with him and laugh with him and tickle him and snuggle with him and fall asleep next to him. i’m just worried that after all this time he’ll feel differently about me. i’m...
I’m so afraid he’s falling out of love with me